Sunday, August 07, 2005

I think I may have just done it this time

Yup, I jumped in with both feet before I even thought. Two of three parties involved aren't offended, but I can't help but wonder if I should've kept out of it.

The problem is, I've kept out of it for years and watched it keep going downhill.

The problem is, it's not just affecting the two original parties anymore, but I still don't think they see it. There's a third party now, and it's affecting her. I'm a friend to all three, and it's affecting me. There are two other people in the house, and it HAS to be affecting them.

The problem is, the two original parties spend so much time pretending it's not going downhill. What's that saying about denial not just being a river in Egypt?

The problem is, from where I sit, it's already hit bottom.

When will they see how much they're hurting each other? Do they have the strength and courage to pick themselves up, dust themselves off, and work their way back up the hill? When will they realize that if they have any hope of making it, they need to do more than vent to their friends or lock their feelings away? Can they realize it's gone way past "we'll ride it out" (it passed that about two years ago) and hurtling into "we need a professional"?

All that hit me in the span of a few seconds, but instead of the quietly sympathetic friend asking those questions, the mean and frustrated bitch said, "This is bullshit. Enough is enough already. Get the help or get out."

Maybe I just should have stayed quiet.

The problem is, I can't. Not and feel like I've done them justice as their friend.

God, I hope I didn't make it worse.

1 comment:

Lynlee said...

Sorry you're having a hard time... Sometimes we have to say what needs to be said to protect our own sanity. Hopefully they will see that it came from a good place in your heart and not to be mean. Good luck!